Tuesday, February 7, 2017
I have a confession to make. After taking a step back and looking at some of the things I posted, I realized I’ve lied. I’ve talked about not having regrets, and how I couldn’t say I had any, and that is just not true I realized.
I do have a regret, and it’s a pretty big one. I want to start out by saying that I loved high school. I wasn’t the most popular kid in school, but I wasn’t alone either. I had a great group of friends and I’m thankful they gave me a great experience. I’m also thankful for my children, and my husband. I don’t regret being a young mother or wife. But there is a huge regret that relates to all of them. I regret the fact that I let fear and my anxiety get in the way. What does this mean you wonder?
While I was in high school I had friends that went out “girls weekends”, “overnight road trips” and did what normal teenagers do. As I grew up I had people invite me to go do this or go do that, and I was always too scared to go.
My whole life when someone asks me to do something I have a bazillion different thoughts go through my head, and a million different scenarios. It’s not that I don’t want to go, oh no. It’s that I can see myself using the money, and then what if I needed that money for something serious. What about all those things you see on tv? Would that happen to us? What if I lost my phone, I knew I couldn’t afford another. I mean seriously, this is what has happened in my brain. And it sucks!
Honestly, that is one thing I want my kids to do that I did not. I want them to be adventurous and to take chances. I’m scared of the unknown, but I don’t want them to be! I want them to know that sometimes mistakes happen, and that’s okay. Always practice safety of course, but go explore the beach or try a new wave of thought.
If you are a little wallflower like me, break out of that mold. Stop living in fear! There is not a reason for fear most of the time, it is just our brains doing crazy things. So jump and get to moving. Find something new to do or something new to create. Find a new you. If you are perfectly content the way you are too, that is AWESOME. But don’t stay where you are just because of fear.
I guess that’s why I took the month of January off from blogging. I needed me time, I need to figure out where I was going in life. I needed to figure out something that would make me happy, just by myself not through my children or husband. In the beginning of the year, I promised myself I would try hard to work on my confidence, in every way. So I did. I decided to jump off the boat with both feet. I decided I would become a distributor for Young Living Essential Oils. To most, that’s not really a big deal. For me, it is everything. I’ve always been afraid, even to try a new business adventure and it didn’t matter how much I loved the product. I decided not this time, not this day. I love essential oils and since I have been using them I can see a huge difference in my family.
I can’t wait to see what this full year will bring me. Have you challenged yourself to do anything this year? Are you a go-getter or are you a wallflower? Let me know!